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CS Lewis

2010-04-27T23:38:00.000-07:00

"I am trying here to prevent anyone saying the really foolish thing that people often say about Him: I’m ready to accept Jesus as a great moral teacher, but I don’t accept his claim to be God. That is the one thing we must not say. A man who was merely a man and said the sort of things Jesus said would not be a great moral teacher. He would either be a lunatic — on the level with the man who says he is a poached egg — or else he would be the Devil of Hell. You must make your choice. Either this man was, and is, the Son of God, or else a madman or something worse. You can shut him up for a fool, you can spit at him and kill him as a demon or you can fall at his feet and call him Lord and God, but let us not come with any patronizing nonsense about his being a great human teacher. He has not left that open to us. He did not intend to."
— C.S. Lewis

Tuesday Sept 8

2009-09-08T01:05:00.000-07:00

He said he was leaving. She ignored him.

*****

I am so glad for the reflective life I am brought into. It hurts me how I can be so obnoxious. Next time, I promise to catch myself before raising my voice or saying hurtful things that I will regret. What siji said was right. I want to appear studious yet chill yet fun loving and friendly. There is too much focus on me and myself and how others view me. And I realize this self absorption blinds me, make me a bitter person. From now, I will intentionally shine the limelight on someone else, I will intentionally not expect rewards nor praise nor recognition, I will intentionally explain my difficulties and not throw a tantrum.

Humility by Andrew Murray may that be a reminder for me, always.

July mid-holiday thoughts

2009-07-18T23:29:00.000-07:00

So many places to go but no one to go with :(

...and photoshop is a bitch. I hate unproductive holidays like this. It makes me angry bitter and unloving. It hit me today, if I cant be less selfish and learn love my family, I may never be ready to meet anyone to love and be loved.

Houston summer 09

2009-06-08T01:14:00.000-07:00

Help me I am about to finish How I Met Your Mother just in the week that I am in Houston. I have never expected it would be so hard spending time with dad. Sometimes I feel that being just with my dad brings out my worse traits like sleeping late and waking up late and lazying around the house all day or maybe its just summer in houston - with nada friends around. Even when I attempted to make it interesting - visiting Rice University, visiting Galleria, it doesn't work. why why why.

Post-final Sp09

2009-05-17T01:19:00.000-07:00

I am almost done with freshman year. One more Kabbalistic paper away and then, summer all over again. I really hope this summer will not be a waste again like last one. I really hated my time in Walnut last year, I can just cry thinking about the precious youth time I lost, so many things I can learn, so many new hobbies I can take on, so many people I can meet. It was the single most unproductive moment in my life and I wished I could just MyLife(Spring/Summer'08)=[].

When I learned in church that living life to the fullest, just cos one doesnt want regret anything aftwards, shouldnt be the goal in a christian's life, I was kind of confused. "People chasing around goals after goals to never fill that void in their heart." repeated in conjunction with the earlier. Maybe its true, I will always have "what ifs", and I may never fill that void in my heart. But the point is, I want to spend my summer doing something radical, something memorable, something I enjoy.

Berkeley has been fun I would say. The people has been great. I kinda wished Berkeley is still in its full glory of a 90's hippy town, more eccentrics more ridiculous-ness more shocking and less nerdy Asians like me. Hopefully I will come to own a car soon so to discover more exciting places around (((:

Wait

2009-05-09T01:40:00.001-07:00

If that was God's way of saying "wait", then I'll be patient.

Frederic Buechner - The Magnificent Defeat

2009-04-28T08:39:00.000-07:00

The love for equals is a human thing—of friend for friend, brother for brother. It is to love what is loving and lovely. The world smiles.

The love for the less fortunate is a beautiful thing—the love for those who suffer, for those who are poor, the sick, the failures, the unlovely. This is compassion, and it touches the heart of the world.

The love for the more fortunate is a rare thing—to love those who succeed where we fail, to rejoice without envy with those who rejoice, the love of the poor for the rich, of the black man for the white man. The world is always bewildered by its saints.

And then there is the love for the enemy—love for the one who does not love you but mocks, threatens, and inflicts pain. The tortured’s love for the torturer. This is God’s love. It conquers the world.

Frederic Buechner - The Magnificent Defeat

The Fame Lady Gaga

2009-03-10T12:52:00.000-07:00

The Fame - Lady Gaga

Fame, doin' it for the fame
'cause we wanna live the life
Of the rich and famous
Fame, doin' it for the fame
'cause we gotta taste for champagne
And endless fortune

late for physics lecture

2009-03-09T22:57:00.000-07:00

Am late for the umpteenth time this morning for physics lecture. Snoozing killed my ass. I decided to shame myself by going for last 15 minutes of lecture anyway. I HATE MY LAZY BUM.

Gnna be early for the rest of my 8am Physics Lecture for the semester. MARK MY WORDS.

Did you ever talk to God above?

2009-03-08T03:41:00.000-07:00

Did you ever talk to God above?
Tell Him that you need a friend to love.
Pray in Jesus’ name believing
that God answers prayer.

Have you told Him all your cares and woes?
Ev’ry tiny little fear He knows.
You can know He’ll always hear
And He will answer prayer.

You can whisper in a crowd to Him.
You can cry when you’re alone to Him.
You don’t have to pray out loud to Him;
He knows your thoughts.

On a lofty mountain peak, He’s there.
In a meadow by a stream, He’s there.
Anywhere on earth you go,
He’s been there from the start.

Find the answer in His Word; it’s true.
You’ll be strong because He walks with you.
By His faithfulness He’ll change you, too.
God answers prayer.

~ Frances Towle Rath

Free Will

2009-03-07T00:44:00.000-08:00

Course 101 is such a great eye opener. I am pleasantly surprised :D
I was introduced to so many wonderful arguments against centuries-old questions that skeptics come up with to challenge this belief of God.

This passage hits me big:

God created things which had free will. That means creatures which can go either wrong or right. Some people think they can imagine a creature which was free but which had no possibility of going wrong; I cannot. If a thing is free to be good it is also free to be bad. And free will is what has made evil possible.

Why, then, did God give them free will? Because free will, though it makes evil possible, is also the only thing that makes possible any love or goodness or joy worth having. A world of automata - of creatures that worked like machines - would hardly be worth creating The happiness which God designs for His higher creatures is the happiness of being freely, voluntarily united to Him and to each other in an ecstasy of love and delight compared with which the most rapturous love between man and woman on this earth is mere milk and water. And for that they must be free.

CS Lewis Mere Christianity (p.52)

Trying to be good; Wanting to be bad

2009-03-04T00:26:00.000-08:00

Things have been uneventful lately. Like an idle mind, a playground for the devil, I have been having wilder thoughts recently. Getting a nose piercing for instance. Getting into a relationship just to have someone to accompany me to go places to do stuffs. Maybe I am just bored. I have itching to shop lately or to just watch a nice movie. I haven't been to a movie theater ever since I came to Berkeley.

I am 20. I wonder what that means. I'll be earning my own living in no time. No time for playing no time to be fooling around then. I HAVE to get married soon then. It makes me want to live a little more recklessly right now and just to be footloose and fancy-free. I wanna go to MASS pillow-fights and concert mosh pits and roadtrips and lindyhop and get a pet. Yet again I dont wanna be caught in the race against time to find a decent soulmate and to maintain my grades and fulfil my social responsibilities.

My urges to do crazier stuffs are always dampened by my reasons, my obligations as the dutiful daughter, as a proper I-want-to-graduate-with-a-decent-GPA-student, as a worthy friend, as an advocate and steward of Lord Jesus Christ. I can never freely act whatever 'cos I am always bogged down (and woken up) by repercussions and ramifications of my actions. Not that its bad; it keeps me falling off the edge.

My Faith

2009-01-31T01:16:00.000-08:00

Finally - Fergie

Winter Retreat was spiritually a rude (not in a bad connotation) awakening for me.
The verse I hated most: Revelation 3:16, "Since you are lukewarm and neither hot nor cold, I am going to spit you out of my mouth." kept haunting me. The fact is I am not sure if I will ever give up the world. Everything and anything that takes you away from God, even if it is essentially good-natured (academics, family, romance etc.), is an idol, is adultery.
Such a crazy book: Crazy Love, Overwhelmed By A Relentless God
especially the chapter Profile of a Lukewarm.

I am the Lukewarm.

But at the end of the retreat I just felt so serene and peaceful. I made a promise and I gnna keep it and my burden is light :D But oh remind me to change this foul temper of mine and how I am too overconfident about myself.

Then tonight it was that super sermon Covered in the Dust of the Rabbi by Rob Bell. I need more of that.

My Rabbi is awesome.

back in sunny singapore

2008-12-25T16:45:00.001-08:00

I'm back in Sunny Island Home of Singapore where the weather is hot hot humid!
I am suffering from a weird jetlag that render me unable to sleep late. So, I have a really healthy sleeping lifestyle over here; early to bed and early to rise whoohoo!

Anyway. Nothing much have changed since its only been what? 9 months? I think I fit right back in. So great to see church mates and old friends! In retrospect, I had underestimated their influences in my life. And of course my brothers and family. Ling-ling is right. I am almost like a mother figure, a more lenient one? and less of a neat freak, for my brothers since I am so much older than them. I miss taking care of them and at the same time ordering them around lol!

AHH I need a hair dryer! I can no longer sleep with a head full of damp hair!

Somewhere else

2008-12-07T21:38:00.001-08:00

It feels odd now. I dont know how it started.
Maybe its been there all along, buried deep inside.
How long have it been?
How long more?

Maybe I should really be somewhere else.

fb too much

2008-12-04T21:23:00.000-08:00

Its weird when I view photos on blogs, I try to roll over people for their names.
I facebook too much tsktsk.

SOCIAL CLOCK

2008-11-19T21:50:00.001-08:00

Do you hear my social clock ringing?

Make it stop.

Laksa

2008-10-15T20:56:00.001-07:00

LAKSA :D

Psych quote

2008-09-19T18:23:00.001-07:00

" Mom may be holding a full house, whilst Dad has a straight flush. yet when Junior gets a random half of each of their cards his poker hand may be a loser."
David Lykken (2001)

(OMG Psych 1 exam next week!)

God helps a man who helps himself

2008-09-12T22:31:00.001-07:00

God helps a man who helps himself.

How true is that? Where is the limit of "helping oneself" then?

Many a times, I identified the Jacob in me. The Jacob who felt the need to make every effort and fight for everything he desired. The shrewd Jacob who stole Esau's birth right and tricked Laban of his prime livestock. The Jacob who struggled with God and would not let go unless He gave him His blessings. I always try to take control of my life -which may not be such a bad thing after all- but at the same time I may not be giving God and His Works enough room in my life.

Over the years I have learned (alas, painfully) that the absolute worst feeling in the world is when you regret not doing something or not making something happened when you shoulda coulda. I fear that if I don't have a go on it right then and there, I will lose that one in a million opportune moment forever. So, how do I know if I am trying to hard? Or if I am to stick with it? How am I to know if this is something God has planned and meant for me to achieve?

Unless the Lord builds the house, they who build it labor in vain; Unless the Lord guards the city, the watchman keeps awake in vain. Psalm 127:1

I don't wish to build anything that He doesnt approve nor guard any place that He does not watch over; For I know well that it will be completely futile and a frustrating waste of time. What then? Go for it? Hang back a little and try to listen to an inkling of direction?

Call to me and I will answer you and tell you great and unsearchable things you do not know. Jeremiah 33:3

2008-09-03T18:38:00.001-07:00

Industrial Engineering or Civil Engineering?
Major/Minor?

WORKPLACES AND COWORKERS

2008-08-16T16:36:00.000-07:00

Positive: SUSIE, ANGELA & COCO!
Susie is such a great entertaining co-worker and I really do respect her for what she'd gone through; and Coco, the toy-poodle, she's such a crazy teddy bear!

Avnet: Layling, Joycelyn (lunch buddy) and Majella (George Lim's cousin!)

GELARE: Xinyan, Sulfian, Sheron and Jessica. (and many more!)
Working in Gelare is so much fun. Even though some of your co-workers can be such jerkasses, most really took good care of me. And rare occasions of star-gazing (UTT :D) and unintentional visits from schoolmates and friends never failed to brighten up my day.

I thank God for these people whom I once shared my life with.

Domestic Goddess

2008-08-09T15:23:00.000-07:00

I have no idea how blessed I was to have a maid and how my clean/neat-obsessed mom had spoilt me way too much.

Since I moved here to LA 4 months ago, I can no longer "scream" for a helper.
Hungry? Cook your own meal. After feeding yourself? Wash your own plates (mannn I hate the lingering smell of rotten food in the sink) . Then you make your bed and change your sheets. Gross out by the soap scum in the bathroom? Scrub it yourself whilst taking a shower. Dirty clothes? Launder it - whites stays together, coloured done separately, others by hand. And what follows it is one of the most hateful chores on earth - ironing clothes - cos' I can never get the creases right lol.

Yup. So this is my story as a domestic goddess.

Mr Curiosity

2008-08-09T02:03:00.000-07:00

Sept 13, 8pm at Cabazon Morongo Casino & Resort - I WANT!

SYTYCD

2008-07-31T22:53:00.000-07:00

IM SUPER UNHAPPY WITH THE TOP 4 RESULTS :(
It should be Will Katee Chelsie and Joshua!

I hope I get to watch the FINALS esp the choreographers' favourites!

HORMONES

2008-07-27T22:30:00.000-07:00

You know it when even the most upbeat songs fail to lift your spirits up - you are getting your monthly visit soon.

HORMONES GO AWAY.

FREEDOM

2008-07-27T19:53:00.000-07:00

This very country, where the right to freedom can overthrow authorities, can sue the heck out of you, is the theme of every protest, leads to the passing of ridiculous laws, whose pursuit causes countless of deaths and misery... to sum it all a FREAKING HUGE DEAL, I dont taste freedom at all.

bummed office day

2008-07-24T18:16:00.000-07:00

Today is just one of those bummed days :(
Office was bustling busy but sorry I couldnt help much except to pick up calls.
Sigh when oh when will I feel less like a loser.

Tmr's gonna be beautiful.

BLUSH

2008-07-21T21:57:00.000-07:00

Out of my meager mediocre make-up experience, I feel the best instrument (which is also a personal favourite) is the lovely BLUSH. What do you think?

Lipstick is the worst. Hah. Applying it is equivalent to forcing myself to eat crayons. Eye makeups are gorgeous but wayway too complicated :( - my double eyelids are too darn near the lashes so after applying eyeliner they turn into very dark single eyelids :S

MAN I need MAC classes.

Sixflags

2008-07-20T16:48:00.000-07:00

SIXFLAGGED :D

X2 and Goliath were the SICKEST and MOST AWESOME rides (click to watch POV videos)
We started the day with X2 and ended with a second night ride of it. WHEE.
X2 was a ridiculous 3hour plus wait BLEAHH.

And I hit Jackpot dude - when I was waiting in line for another ride, a bug flew right into my eye and was stuck there for a couple of minutes! GROSSNESS TO THE MAX. I thought I was gnna go blind :(

Oh, I met some cool NUS/NTU - UCLA summer session girls whilst queuing for fresh lemonades. Hahah the accent was unmistakable. Once again, I MISS SINGLISH!

Rafting 2008

2008-07-12T20:02:00.000-07:00

White-water rafting at Sacramento :D

Ingrid Michaelson - The Way I Am

2008-06-06T16:43:00.001-07:00

The Way I Am - Ingrid Michaelson

JOBS II

2008-06-06T13:48:00.000-07:00

And so I was and am desperately looking for jobs.

Looked in Classified online, Classified in LA Times, Classified in Chinese Papers...
To date, I think I have sent out almost 20 emails excluding walk-ins and telephone inquiries.
3 interviews so far, 2 failed ones.
The first one because the nature of the job involves marketing KNIVES door-to-door. As if entering a stranger's house is not dangerous enough, you're bringing kitchen WEAPONRY for them to demonstrate on. I felt as if I am putting myself up for slaughter. So I said no.

The 2nd one is for a CustSvc/Computer sthsth Assistant. It was in a run-down factory office with 2 Mainlander in charge. Noticing my SAT score on my resume he asked me: what is dy/dx? What is mole? What is the lightest element on the periodic table? The heaviest?
The other guy asked me if Chinese was discriminated in Indonesia cos they are better businessmen and are generally richer.
And he made me do a typing test (which I think I did pretty badly in)
By the end of it, I am fighting the urge to scream JERKSSSSS.

On retrospect, I dont know what they actually did to put me off so much.
I seriously suspect myself to be prejudiced against Mainlanders esp middle-aged ill-mannered smug-faced ones. But then again anyone of any race who are annoying ARE annoying. So I am being annoying here.

But they did offer me the job but I asked them to give me some time to think over.
This morning they called to tell me they have gotten a more qualified candidate thus dropping me. I dont know whether to laugh or cry.

Terrifying, truly, if this is a preview of what is to come in a few more years. Unemployment, undesirable jobs, equally undesirable supervisors, rejections (worse still by people you disliked), self-questioning of self-worth.

God, help me to study as hard and as smart as I can so that I would not once again be caught dead in the same situation.

One more pending and I am crossing my fingers and toes and praying hard that this story has a happy ending.

Life of Pi

2008-06-03T22:33:00.000-07:00

This book is truly unbelievably wittily ridiculously incredible :D

"Before moving to Pondicherry, Father ran a large hotel in Madras. An abiding interest in animals led him to the zoo business. A natural transition, you might think, from hotelkeeping to zookeeping. Not so. In many ways, running a zoo is a hotelkeeper's worst nightmare. Consider: the guests never leave their rooms; they expect not only lodging but full board; they receive a constant flow of visitors, some whom are noisy and unruly. One has to wait until they saunter to their balconies, so to speak, before one can clean their rooms, and then one has to wait until they tire of the view and return to their rooms before one can clean their balconies; and there is much cleaning to do, for the guests are as unhygienic as alcoholics. Each guest is very particular about his or her diet, constantly complains about the slowness of the service, and never, ever tips. To speak frankly, many are sexual deviants, either terribly repressed and subject to explosions of frenzied lasciviousness or openly depraved, in either case regularly affronting management with gross outrages of free sex and incest. Are these the sorts of guests you would want to welcome to your inn? The Pondicherry Zoo was the source of some pleasure and many headaches for Mr. Santosh Patel, founder, owner, director, head of staff of fifty-three, and my father."

JOBS

2008-06-01T20:39:00.000-07:00

Why would God not want me to have a job?
Does He want me to have a job?
To do something else than to read fictions (some great books nonetheless) and surf net and TV channels all day?
Won’t He rather have me been taught Spanish in the classroom than test what little discipline I have to read on my own?
Does He not want me to earn some little mullah I can so that when I spend money to trade for some fun and laughter and knowledge I can bill them into my own tiny bank of sweat and frustration and not that of my parents?
Why would He not want me to gain experience in work? Be it tangible skills, memorable reprimands or exciting new acquaintances?

With all due love and respect, Lord, why not?
Are you angry with me Lord that you may not hear my prayers?
Are you asking me to wait Lord and teaching me patience? ‘cos Lord I think I’m reaching the end of it.
Or am I just not trying hard enough, Lord?

Please, Lord, please let me understand.

Lovely Sceneries @ SoCal

2008-05-30T00:25:00.000-07:00

LOVELY SCENERIES AT SAN DIEGO BEACH

These trees - that look like the purple versions of the famous Sakura aka Cherry Blossoms, or maybe not - are Jacarandas. They look as if they have purple leaves I swear. SOOOSOOO GORGEOUS :D

The reason death sticks so closely to life isn't biological necessity - it's envy. Life is so beautiful that death has fallen in love with it, a jealous, possessive love that grabs at what it can. But love leaps over oblivion lightly, losing only a thing or two of no importance, and gloom is but the passing shadow of a cloud.

(Yann Martel in Life of Pi)

LOVELY BONES

2008-05-15T17:43:00.000-07:00

My first time to have completed a paperback at a bookstore (over the span of 3 days nonetheless)
Heard they are going to make it into a movie - nahhh.
I feel that the story plot is not exactly cut out for a movie. Its too.. personal?
Its a story which should be read and ponder about, whose images to be left for the readers' own imagination to enact. Besides it has too many inward thoughts and feelings of too many characters to be accurately portrayed by acting. (Shrug) that was just my two pieces.

But hey! I am thrilled for other cool books that are coming out on the wide screen.
Like the much much hyped up TWILIGHT (end 2008). THE TIME TRAVELER'S WIFE (Eric Bana!) and MY SISTER'S KEEPER too each coming out 2008 2009 respectively. CANT WAIT :D

P.S. OK now what next?

rant

2008-05-13T01:07:00.000-07:00

I MISS SHOPPING AT TOPSHOP. I MISS JUMPING ON A BUS TO PP/ORCHARD AND SPEND HOURS AND HOURS ON END OF RETAIL THERAPY. I DONT KNOW WHAT IM DOING HERE STAYING HOME ALL DAY LONG.

I hope you dance card

2008-05-08T00:22:00.000-07:00

2008-05-07T21:42:00.000-07:00

I THINK I BUM AROUND SO MUCH THAT I BECOME SOOO GOOD AT IT.
Lets see how long more I can stand being useless to the world.

DONT GET MAD GET EVEN

2008-05-07T19:38:00.001-07:00

DONT GET MAD GET EVEN

2008-03-23T10:44:00.001-07:00

Read my VisualDNA™ Get your own VisualDNA™

Waraku (March 08)

2008-03-17T18:44:00.000-07:00

Dinner at Waraku (: with church (pri)mates

sherman.del.cousin jacq.job

daniels face after someone suggested that I was treating (I dint) / chiewrui (our shepherdgrp leader)

there are at least 4 cockroaches roaming around within 1 m radius when we took this -.-

2008 VS 2003

10 March 08

2008-03-12T05:43:00.000-07:00

AUGUST RUSH (:
lovely lovely tunes apart from the far-from-realistic plot.
ah heck its still good. go rush for it!

Dickson Sim - the KHS trio (sans Chiabai)

ribeye sandwich and HEAVENLY STICKY DATE TOFFEE PUDDING (which we forgot to snap cos it looked way tooooo yummayy)

This is how I feel

2008-03-08T08:32:00.001-08:00

PROM PICS

2008-02-25T22:39:00.000-08:00

long-due prom photos pictures :)

Humility - Andrew Murray

2008-02-22T07:46:00.000-08:00

Andrew Murray :: Humility

Humility is perfect quietness of heart. It is for me to have no trouble; never to be fretted or vexed or irritated or sore or disappointed. It is to expect nothing, to wonder at nothing that is done to me, to feel nothing done against me. It is to be at rest when nobody praises me and when I am blamed or despised. It is to have a blessed home in the Lord where I can go in and shut the door and kneel to my Father in secret and be at peace as in a deep sea of calmness when all around is trouble. It is the fruit of the Lord Jesus Christ’s redemptive work on Calvary’s cross, manifested in those of His own who are definitely subject to the Holy Spirit.

Dear Colleague

2008-02-01T01:03:00.000-08:00

Dear Colleague,

"So busy showing me where i'm wrong
You forgot to switch your feelings on."

Goodbye Mr A, The Hoosiers

Regards

Isabella

2008-01-23T07:54:00.000-08:00

YOU KNOW WHAT KEPT ME GOING?
THE MORNING DAN AND YOUNG SHOW AND LATE NIGHTS DR. HOUSE.
THANKYOU LORD FOR BOTH.

wheres my confidence?

2007-12-26T06:37:00.000-08:00

I just finished THE TIME TRAVELER'S WIFE and feeling all sappy. It is love which transcends time and space and logic. Beautiful it is.
(ohoh! the movie's coming up in '08!)

Sometimes, I yearn for some company too. A lot actually, lately. I even started praying about it. I know the biblically-correct answer to that: God has planned a perfect match (in His eyes anyway); we will just have to be patient and faith. I do have confidence in that, almost always anyway. But what if He decided that I would be too distracted, what if He decided that I should be like Paul after all?
But I'm nineteen and I like to think that I am old enough to realize that there are things that we should not rush into.

I think I've hit the Period of Uncertainty now. With others around me getting their places in wherever they had applied, I am growing anxious. I don't want it to happen again. Left behind. I am fearful at the thought that God wills me to go places, do things that I'd rather not. That typing that down draws finality to it.

After I took up counter-waitressing @ GELARE, it becomes somewhat clear that I'm in no way special, in no way especially gifted or agile or sociable whatever. I used to think that I have an absolute advantage in both ways you know, both in menial work and mental work. But maybe thats not the case.

I desperately need to restore my confidence, FAST.

SALEM FALLS

2007-12-10T00:57:00.000-08:00

...is driving me nuts!
The ending was inconclusive and mysteries were left hanging in midair.
#^$&%#&% seriously cant believe this. SO, Whose semen swab? Have the father all along sexually assaulted her? What came out of Meg's spell? What what what?
I WANT ANSWERS NOW!

Take My Life And Let It Be

2007-10-13T07:18:00.000-07:00

Take my life, and let it be
consecrated, Lord, to thee;
take my moments and my days,
let them flow in ceaseless praise.
.
Take my hands, and let them move
at the impulse of thy love;
take my feet, and let them be
swift and beautiful for thee.
.
Take my voice, and let me sing
always, only, for my King;
take my lips, and let them be
filled with messages from thee.
.
Take my silver and my gold,
not a mite would I withhold;
take my intellect, and use
every power as thou shalt choose.
.
Take my will and make it thine;
it shall be no longer mine.
take my heart, it is thine own;
it shall be thy royal throne.
.
Take my love; my Lord, I pour
at thy feet its treasure store;
take my self, and I will be
ever, only, all for thee.

Take My Life And Let It Be
Words: Frances Ridley Havergal, 1874

Onze Minutos

2007-09-26T09:28:00.000-07:00

Once upon a time, there was a prostitute called Maria.

Wait a minute. "Once upon a time" is how all the

best children's stories begin and "prostitute" is a word

for adults. How can I start a book with this apparent

contradiction? But since, at every moment of our lives, we all

have one foot in the fairytale and the other in the abyss,

let's keep that beginning.

- Paul Coelho Onze Minutos

Thewistleblower

2007-08-05T06:44:00.000-07:00

THE WISTLE BLOWER

sigh. c'est la vie.

ETERNAL SUNSHINE OF A SPOTLESS MIND

2007-07-20T10:24:00.000-07:00

"I'm always anxious thinking I'm not living my life to the fullest, y'know? Taking advantage of every possibility? Just making sure that I'm not wasting one second of the little time I have. "

Clementine Kruczynski
Eternal Sunshine of a Spotless Mind

I wonder if I'll ever feel truly contented this way.

The Historian - Elizabeth Kostova

2007-07-15T05:54:00.000-07:00

ohya. forgot to introduce the book that i was so crazy about over the holidays.read it every night before CT2 began!

So, the topic of Dracula is wholly new to me so its a fresh read. Plus the writing is decent. Actually considering that the plot unfolds by flashbacks and letters and present situations, the writing is, in fact, very comprehensive and clear and EXCITING.

The book claims that the very much marketed Dracula (Vlad Tepes The Impaler) is an actual (ruthless) historical figure who happened to be impaled himself (sth like to have a stake pierced through his bottoms and out through his mouth) and later attained the state of undead, ie. vampirism. And the main characters in the book were trying to pursue the location of his tomb.

Its supposed to be horror; sometimes I had imagined a vampire standing outside the window watching, waiting; other times I would keep a lookout for sickeningly pale passers-by with longer canines; hehe other than that, I'm cool :))

The book takes you to a whole new exhilarating level of traveling - super exotic middle eastern countries like Hungary, Romania, Turkey and the likes. Also gave a sneak peek on the monuments and cultures there. The twists are impressive and you'll never get bored!

The thing about it, is that it is kind of thick. about the size of a Harry Potter. So yeah, it took me about 2 weeks hehe. Other than that its a PERFECT READ!

AFT CT2

2007-06-29T04:52:00.000-07:00

the only thing laughable bout chem and math is how ridiculously hard they are.
It made me feel incredibly stupid if thats even funny.

anyway. i wont be carefree for long. apps & essays tmr hopefully.

yet another thing to laugh about

2007-06-26T05:16:00.000-07:00

yet another thing to laugh about.
just humour me abit.

Qn: ..Why does India trade with China and USA?

I immediately thought of this and was self amused hehe.

Russell Peters - Indian vs Chinese

PHYSICS CT

2007-06-25T01:11:00.001-07:00

1down 4 more to go. but ugh that doesnt sound encouraging at all.
Anyway the reason im putting Supply Side Mgtmt Policy aside is to blog bout todays brain-frying Physics paper. Yet I managed to get some crude? fun out of it.

Theres this question:
i) Calculate the retarding force of the lawn mower.

So out of habit I wrote { Ftotal = ma + Fretard }
HAHAHA. okay it might not be the funniest thing in the world but in that highly-strung 3 hrs and the fact that its totally unintentional, it just made me wanna burst out laughing then and there!

alright, off to raise level of technology and improve human capital!

HAPPY DADDY'S DAY

2007-06-17T09:06:00.000-07:00

Dear Daddy,
(who will probably never get to see this)

Sometimes, there are things you do that I do not approve of. I would get angry and frank, too frank. But Dad, I just want you to know that I really do meant well. I know that sometimes I do get snappy at you and I'm sorry for being disrespectful. I also know that its been hard there without us and it could get a little lonely. But take heart Dad, we are always here for you.

Daddy I pray for you all the blessings and protections from our Lord Jesus Christ.
May He grant you also health, wisdom and love.
I wish you all the happyness in the whole wide world.
And Dad? I really hope that I have made you proud (past, present and future tense)
Happy Happier Happiest Fathers' Day.

Love,
Your happy daughter.

yeahyeahyeahsong

2007-06-15T08:58:00.000-07:00

If you could blow up the world with the flick of a switch
Would you do it?
If you could make everyobody poor just so you could be rich
Would you do it?
If you could watch everybody work while you just lay on your back
Would you do it?
If you could take all the love without giving any back
Would you do it?
.
And so we cannot know ourselves or what we'd really do...
.
With all your power
What would you do?
.
If you could make your own money and then give it to everybody
Would you do it?
If you knew all the answers and could give it to the masses
Would you do it?
No no no no no no are you crazy?
.
It's a very dangerous thing to do exactly what you want
Because you cannot know yourself or what you'd really do
.
With all your power
What would you do?

[The Flaming Lips - The Yeah Yeah Yeah Song]

THINGS THAT ARE KEEPING ME OFF CT REVISION

2007-06-14T10:32:00.000-07:00

ONE OF THE THINGS THAT ARE KEEPING ME OFF CT REVISION

KIM PEEK - THE REAL RAIN MAN
He's really a mega savant.

MOODSWINGS

2007-06-14T08:32:00.000-07:00

I hate moodswings. They do you absolutely no good.
I have moodswings because of the people around me.
When people get angry at me, I get angry at them back.
When people get irritated with me, I too get irritated by them.
That is just me.
And my poor anger management.
And lousy attitude.

CREAMBATH&MANIPEDI

2007-06-08T07:39:00.001-07:00

Just went for Creambath and Mani-Pedi this aftnoon.
These are must-dos when youre here. The head-neck-shoulder massage was fabo and look at my literally colourful nails :))) yayayay!
(but thanks to stupid clumsy me – some were alr disfigured)

All this is at the cost of ---- S$20!
Exclusive of tips that is, BUT STILL...in Singapore a mani cost that much can :((

OHOH! Listen to this. That time I wenta China, the simple manicure cost -- RMB3 !!
No serious Im not kidding! Its S$0.60!

TAKE THAT SINGAPORE

Jakarta

2007-06-06T20:10:00.000-07:00

Do you know that in cities like jakarta, people are selling petrolium to get by?
And how do they get those petrol from?
They usually hang around beside a main road, each holding a plastic bag, waiting for oiltankers (your BP/Esso tankers etc) to pass by. Catching up with the tanker, they will go for the taps and try to fill up their plastic bag as much as possible with the remaining petrolium left on the tanker after its earlier offload. Note that all these are done when the vehicle is still cruising.

Am i making any sense?

JADEDDD

2007-05-29T20:47:00.000-07:00

As much as I try to be optimistic and cheery, there always are times like these (now) that i feel that I'm the most boring uninteresting unwitty unfunny stoned jaded no-lifer girl around.
GRAH. Can't even take a short breather (join in the GSS craze) without SATS&CTS nagging relentlessly at the back of my brains :((((
Rly feel like boxing your face.

PZ bday / Superstrings art

2007-05-06T09:08:00.000-07:00

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY TO MISS ANG PEI ZHEN!

we got her this infant-sized bikini (whose top can hardly cover nips seriously!) so cute!

but anyway which mother is insane enough to let her daughter wear those stuffs pls. might as well be stark naked.

pizzahut sucks except for its CHEESE LAVA3 CRUST; unworthy of our money :((

ohya. they gave pz this supposed for moms Mothers' Day Hamper which was really a plastic bag half full of some very interesting beauty products.

like antiageing cream

Went to drop by Esplanade with Shuhua aft that. I LOVE SUPERSTRINGS ARTWORK.

Rule no1: the lines must not intersect one another at all times.

Rule no2: the whole artwork is made out of ONE INFINITELY LONG LINE.

(cant rly rmb word for word but the gist is there lah)

I still do have this grandma sewing desk at home hahha!

MY FAVOURITE!

LOVE THE APPLE STRUCTURE! click to enlarge!

and me?

I'm God's Work of Art :))

Everybodys Free (to wear sunscreen)

2007-05-03T10:04:00.000-07:00

Everybody's Free (to wear sunscreen)
Mary Schmich Chicago Tribune

Ladies and Gentlemen of the class of '97... wear sunscreen.

If I could offer you only one tip for the future, sunscreen would be IT. The long term benefits of sunscreen have been proved by scientists whereas the rest of my advice has no basis more reliable than my own meandering experience.

I will dispense this advice now.

Enjoy the power and beauty of your youth; oh never mind; you will not understand the power and beauty of your youth until they have faded. But trust me, in 20 years you'll look back at photos of yourself and recall in a way you can't grasp now how much possibility lay before you and how fabulous you really looked.

You are NOT as fat as you imagine.

Don't worry about the future; or worry, but know that worrying is as effective as trying to solve an algebra equation by chewing bubblegum. The real troubles in your life are apt to be things that never crossed your worried mind; the kind that blindside you at 4pm on some idle Tuesday.

Do one thing every day that scares you.

Sing.

Don't be reckless with other people's hearts, don't put up with people who are reckless with yours.

Floss.

Don't waste your time on jealousy; sometimes you're ahead, sometimes you're behind. The race is long, and in the end, it's only with yourself.

Remember compliments you receive, forget the insults; if you succeed in doing this, tell me how.

Keep your old love letters, throw away your old bank statements.

Stretch.

Don't feel guilty if you don't know what you want to do with your life. The most interesting people I know didn't know at 22 what they wanted to do with their lives, some of the most interesting 40 year olds I know still don't.

Get plenty of calcium.
.

Be kind to your knees, you'll miss them when they're gone.

Maybe you'll marry, maybe you won't, maybe you'll have children, maybe you won't, maybe you'll divorce at 40, maybe you'll dance the funky chicken on your 75th wedding anniversary. Whatever you do, don't congratulate yourself too much or berate yourself, either. Your choices are half chance, so are everybody else's.

Enjoy your body, use it every way you can. Don't be afraid of it, or what other people think of it, it's the greatest instrument you'll ever own.
.

Dance. Even if you have nowhere to do it but in your own living room.

Read the directions, even if you don't follow them.
.

Do NOT read beauty magazines, they will only make you feel ugly.

Get to know your parents, you never know when they'll be gone for good.
.

Be nice to your siblings; they are your best link to your past and the people most likely to stick with you in the future.

Understand that friends come and go, but for the precious few you should hold on. Work hard to bridge the gaps in geography in lifestyle because the older you get, the more you need the people you knew when you were young.
.

Live in New York City once, but leave before it makes you hard; live in Northern California once, but leave before it makes you soft.
.

Travel.
.

Accept certain inalienable truths, prices will rise, politicians will philander, you too will get old, and when you do you'll fantasize that when you were young prices were reasonable, politicians were noble and children respected their elders.

Respect your elders.
.

Don't expect anyone else to support you. Maybe you have a trust fund, maybe you'll have a wealthy spouse; but you never know when either one might run out.

Don't mess too much with your hair, or by the time you're 40, it will look 85.
.

Be careful whose advice you buy, but, be patient with those who supply it. Advice is a form of nostalgia, dispensing it is a way of fishing the past from the disposal, wiping it off, painting over the ugly parts and recycling it for more than it's worth.

But trust me on the sunscreen..

council room activities

2007-04-30T20:54:00.000-07:00

As the 23rds council term is drawing to an end, I shall present to you a couple of never-before-seen pictures of activities in the coucil room :))

LE FATIGUE AND ACHING DISCO

SELF-EXPLANATORY

Christina Aguilera - Candyman

2007-04-12T08:42:00.000-07:00

CHRISTINA AGUILERA - CANDYMAN
love her nostalgic album. shes soO good.

binom distribution

2007-04-11T07:32:00.000-07:00

"n choose r, p power r, one minus p power n minus r"

I think I need brain steroids.

peanut butter and cheesee

2007-04-10T07:42:00.000-07:00

you know whats the best thing on earth now?
PEANUT BUTTER AND CHEESE TOASTS FOR BREAKFAST :)))))))
these are a few of my favourite things :)

I was just telling Denise that my appetite seemed to balloon since 4trainingdays a week started. i should be petrified pls. Its not like I'm not heavy enough wahlao. But i thought about it.. and I realised I was oddly pleased, proud even!, that I did not try to starve myself; that I'm appreciative of great food; that I do not actually have to deal with that issue of socially-awkward eating disorders;that even when i try to "diet" it always starts tmr and tmr never comes; that I'm ohso healthy and strong! halelujah! (((:

Via Crucis

2007-04-06T23:47:00.000-07:00

My Jesus Lord,
I will take my cross daily.

Teach me to welcome the monotony that often marks my day, discomforts of all kinds, the day's heat, my disappointments, tensions, setbacks and cares.

Lord Jesus, help me to remember that in carrying my cross, I carry Yours with you.

Via Crucis Stations of the Cross

otters holding hands

2007-04-03T09:47:00.000-07:00

-MELTS-

At World's End

2007-03-22T09:10:00.000-07:00

WATCH THE TRAILER DUDE!
-SWOONS-

Poem of Colour

2007-03-19T07:52:00.000-07:00

Came across this beautiful poem in the Exploring Ethnicity Camp.
It was written by an African kid and was nominated The Best Poem in 2005.

When I born, I Black,
When I grow up, I Black,
When I go in Sun, I Black,
When I scared, I Black,
When I sick, I Black,
And when I die, I still black...

And you White fella,
When you born, you Pink,
When you grow up, you White,
When you go in Sun, you Red,
When you cold, you Blue,
When you scared, you Yellow,
When you sick, you Green,
And when you die, you Gray...

And you calling me Colored ?

SCARLETT JOHANSON speed drawing

2007-03-15T23:08:00.000-07:00

dry spell

2007-03-11T00:41:00.000-08:00

apologies for the month-long dry spell :(((
tsk! must be the El Nino!
but im afraid that it would have to extend.
or at this moment should I say something self- deprecating like "oh but doubt anyone ever reads anymore anywayy :(((((( "

hahah. ANYWAY common tests out (not exactly ecstatic bout it)
but Netball camp, Elects' Camp and Cultural Dairy Farm Camp are up next.
hahah. dont ask; we are not milking cows.
post it up next time :))

LOVEisabella

Jody Picoult - My Sister's Keeper

2007-02-06T05:22:00.000-08:00

"I sit down as gently as I can. The veins on Kate's neck and chest are a road map, highways that don't go anywhere. I trick myself into believing that I can see those rogue leukemia cells moving like a rumor through her system. "

JODI PICOULT My Sister's Keeper

Le sigh. Tell me how am I not supposed to fall in love with that.
Picoult's soOO GOOD, I swear. Her magic and metaphors can touch you just like that.
I cried buckets upon finishing it; the ending nearly killed me.
I just know I couldnt possibly bring myself to re-read it :((

whatever eragon's next!

Still

2007-02-02T19:40:00.001-08:00

In the 2006 Festival of Praise, Don Moen performed "Still" and attributed the song to Hurricane Katrina victims. What could be more apt?

Still
Words and Music by Reuben Morgan

Hide me now
Under your wings
Cover me
within your mighty hand

When the oceans rise and thunders roar
I will soar with you above the storm
Father you are king over the flood
I will be still and know you are God

Find rest my soul
In Christ alone
Know his power
In quietness and trust

When the oceans rise and thunders roar
I will soar with you above the storm
Father you are king over the flood
I will be still and know you are God.

Arts and Disabilities

2007-02-01T07:32:00.000-08:00

Have been doing volunteering front of house duties for The Necessary Stage for the past 3 nights.

Usual mundane saikangs of moving chairs and tables, tearing / collating tickets, ushering blahblah the only incentive was that we got to watch Survivor Singapore haha. Fundamentally Happy feat Enlai's coming up :))) hope it'll be greaat. People kept asking if we're doing these for testimonials haha. I find it kinda amusing - like how glamorous can saikangs get? how are ushering being anywhere near impressive? and tearing tickets something worth testifying?

oh. maybe they are refering to CIP hours. i dont mind getting tho' if theres any -- justify my going home at 11 oclocks for 3 consecutive nights and counting.

Lack of sleep + empty stomach + alarming hairfall + zits = grumpy self

apologies to those annoying ppl out there if i snapped at you.
ps: you know who you are

Some effective shopping today. Not for my CNY gear tho' :( guess have to squeeze out other time for that.

Later lovelies (not) !

SATS

2007-01-28T08:45:00.000-08:00

just toiled 6hours of SATS on saturday. the taxing part was actually the hour-long instructions prior to the paper. twas like a huge bucket of freezeass cold water poured over any fear/anticipation/excitement one accumulated over the month/week/day. AIYAH. its over right who cares man. okay actually erm... I CARE.

It wasnt long since I embarked on my journey of servanthood for God, but already I feel the pinch of sacrifice. BOOBOO. Not that my sacrifice was anywhere near honourable, nor its a big deal for anyone. But got no time to do tutorials to revise lectures to catch a breatherr :((( so lost and tired and siannn HAIYAHHHH. whatever la I just have to hangon till things settle down for the year.

I really hope 2007 will be a joyous year.

just for one last time,
HAIYYYYYAAAAAHHHHHHHH
WHAT E VERRRRR MANNNNNNN

SDD photo

2007-01-19T11:26:00.000-08:00

and the long awaited SDD2006 adhoc photo*drumrolls*

6thDec06 @ RITZ CARLTON

i always have the urge to tear when i see this photo after the earlier one. the whole event would just videoplayed in my mind. And I still can feel that same sense of relieve and satisfaction and achievement you felt that morning after. sighh.

NETBALL FAREWELL

2007-01-19T11:17:00.000-08:00

NETBALL FAREWELL @ FISH N CO

post orientation

2007-01-19T10:15:00.000-08:00

POST ORIENTATION

ohwells basically its just dinner and BBQ aka "project get fat"

s'posed to pose like the Statue of Liberty but failed
hah and look at wanyun -_-" trying to steal a mouthful of my cottoncandy tsktsk. She should have just nicely asked for it.

happy table versus..

..stonedd table hah.

BBQ 19thJan

random BBQers

beertini - vira

wingsum - siokling - me

me-sheena-peizhen

THADDEUS - THEMSELVES =D tsk those gamblers -_-"

& other lotsa blurrredd photos. wahlao night photos are seriously tedious sht man. no wonder the pros will always use tripods.

oh and i love digicams =) may i nv be sick of camwhoring. taking photos are just like freezing goodtimes.

feelin good

2007-01-14T06:50:00.000-08:00

I FEEL GOOD =) cos ive madeup my mind and i gnna keep to my resolution. God helps =)

LeeAnnWomack I HOPE YOU DANCE

2007-01-10T06:44:00.000-08:00

Dear friends,

I hope you never lose your sense of wonder
You get your fill to eat
But always keep that hunger
May you never take one single breath for granted
God forbid love ever leave you empty handed

I hope you still feel small
When you stand by the ocean
Whenever one door closes, I hope one more opens
Promise me you'll give faith a fighting chance

And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance
I hope you dance
I hope you dance

I hope you never fear those mountains in the distance
Never settle for the path of least resistance
Living might mean taking chances
But they're worth taking
Lovin' might be a mistake
But it's worth making
Don't let some hell bent heart
Leave you bitter

When you come close to selling out
Reconsider
Give the heavens above
More than just a passing glance

And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance
I HOPE YOU DANCE.

[leeann womack i hope you dance]

sea regatta

2007-01-09T06:37:00.000-08:00

"PLEASE EXPLAIN TO ME WHY THERE'S SAND IN YOUR UNDIES ?!"

-my mom, a day aft sea regatta, well she might have the wrong idea -_-

fucking rich kids

2007-01-03T07:15:00.000-08:00

Now i know why it's mentioned in the bible that it is harder for the rich to enter His Kingdom than a camel to go through a pinhole.
cos they are so damn fucking condescending and treat everyone else like dirtshit.
think they are so fucking high almighty and to them others are nth more than pathetic moronheads.
they hold people with absolutely no bloody regard. And think they are so goddamn smart genius asses. What right do they have to impose their filthy views?

Now you can jollywell fucking get out of my face.

nativity & truman

2006-12-19T10:05:00.000-08:00

some other shows I've watched recently:

5 popcorns!

kept wanting to watch this since Tiff talked about it.
MINDBLOWING whoo! and its plot its pretty original.
but hello, some thing i cant fathom.
whats so darn interesting bout WATCHING somebody else's life twentyfourseven hur?

****

4 popcorns

The Nativity Story simply refers to the birth of Jesus Christ.
To retell the story that has been told over the past 2000 years, not easy k. So i dint expect much out of the movie. But twas surprisingly good =))

He's such a wondrous gift.
The last part when the shepherds and wisemen came to worship baby Jesus, it got me thinking what it'll be like if I was there to witness the birth.

Surrounded by Your glory, what will my heart feel
Will I dance for You Jesus or in awe of You be still
Will I stand in Your presence or to my knees will I fall
Will I sing hallelujah, will I be able to speak at all
I can only imagine
(mercy me - i can only imagine)

eragon

2006-12-19T09:42:00.000-08:00

2 puny popcorns

like shit man. underdeveloped plot seemed almost ridiculous.
an insult to its bestseller i bet.
CANT WAIT TO GET MY HANDS ON THEM :))

The Intellegencer by Leslie Silbert

2006-12-13T19:41:00.000-08:00

4 bookworms

Revolves around Elizabethan espionage: Christopher Marlowe who was a playwright (of Shakespeare's standard) and also a spy; in contrast of modern day PI Kate Morgan whose current case she's dealing with was greatly related to the Renaissance period.

Surprisingly captivating i should say :)) with some praiseworthy twist. Plus it's a fresh break all the hoohas bout Vatican/Catholic conspiracies. Finally.
I dont fancy the ending tho', the modern day plot felt a little incomplete.
Another reason this book seemed to be a boo-boo is the palpable similarity between the credits of Silbert and her protagonist Kate Morgan. Haha.

Notwithstanding, THE INTELLEGENCER is still verymuch an enjoyable read =))
Pick it up!

DXO anecdote and dental surgery!

2006-12-11T18:21:00.000-08:00

yoohoo! everybody im el to the ee-g-a-l LEGAL!
but youth is slipping me by :((
im getting OLDDD. booo.

oh WARNING VERY LONG POST AHEAD
*********

SDD NIGHT 7thDEC

Let me share my anecdote with you. it happened on 6thDec. The Senior Dinner and Dance night.
The adhoc has complimentary tickets to postprom @ DXO courtesy of our Francis our SC senior who happened to be one of the postprom organisers.

Actually, not long before that, I happened to kinda promised God that I would not club till i officially turn eighteen lah.

So on the night after SDD programmed come to an end at around midnight. After much frantic and confusion and brokenheart about our stolen valuables, we went on to a lenghthy debrief of the night's programmes and their execution whilst complaining bout the emcee and congratulating ourselves for the event welldone :))) after which we went up to our room (yes, the adhoc has 2 Ritz rooms to ourselves =)) on that night) to freshen up.

We were split into 2 groups those who's heading to DXO and those gg for foodhunting (led by our dear Nikhil who fierily insist we should not consume any kind any amount of alcohol for any reason at all) damn funny.
Most of us dint have time for dinner earlier that night so by this time we can each eat a cow.

I myself was contemplating to go postprom hoho. (i mean hello? people's new cam got stolen and SDD is like the event we've been planning for 6 freaking month! I DESERVE SOME BLOODY FUN OKAY. moreover the tics free what) haha excuses.

Ok when we were in the room, washed my face then traded my pathetic 2cm heels (lol) whose straps were alr eating into my feet, for oh-so-comfy dunks :)) [thank God for dunks!] note that im still in my black dress. And im all ready to hit the streets!

But the girls were taking soOOooO super long to get ready ARGHH! im dmn thankful for that i tell you why later. I was qt pissed&impatientat the time. Felt pretty proud that i made the right choice with my dunks as we realise later on that the path from Ritz to DXO is pretty rough. So the girls were teetering gingerly behind with their killer stilettos whilst i sneeringly ehem glided my way there :))

Just kidding girls i still love you guys so very much muacks:)))))

Haha. and Guess what. when we arrived at dxo finally, the party's alr over! and the club was closing for the.. morning. apparently its alr 4 in the morning. the Makan Sutra right beside was obviously alr closed as well.

Then I suddenly remembered my promise to Him. and was amazed how He thwart my plan to break my promise! tsktsk. how can we not marvel? thank Him and thank the girls for taking so darn long to get ready. yup!

********

MY ORTHOSURGERY 10thDEC

so i was up for a gum/jaw surgery on the morning of tenth.
and no it wasnt one of those plastic surgery Korean youths get on their birthdays.
URGH how i hate the anesthetic jabs! they taste like cherry-flavoured medicine. but actually thats practically the only pain you feel during the surgery. lol. i know la i got a low threshold of pain. My mouth went numb almost instantly. Cant control your lower lip and as i said before it feels like a useless piece of flab hoho.

During the procedure i felt nothing, only slight pressures. But my ortho was like "scalpel please" "see i cut it lower at this side" and you can hear the diamond drill bit drilling your jaw. the sound of the friction. the stupid smell of the charred powdery whatever which i assumed arised from the drilling. how the blood flew out messily and landed on my face.

haha it made me wanna pee on my pants. I clutched my corduroy pants so tight and i flexed my left thigh so hard it went into spasm. DAMN FUNNY. But honestly I couldnt feel a thing. Its just that those theatrical sensations gave me false impressions of the supposed pain I was to experience LOL.

Ask me and i'll show you the stitches um proudly? hahha.
Now my chin is kindof swollen, making me look like i did chin implant instead (!) hohoho.

********

RANDOM

on a random note,
NIP/TUCK rocks la! its super twisted. in everysenseoftheword.
and GuoJingJing and LiTing rock too. They are really really many cuts above the rest.
They are synchro springboard divers from China by the way. OlympicGold medallists O_O
Springboard/Platform diving and Beach volleyball duo are my favourite events in meets =) whats yours?

SDD

2006-12-08T00:59:00.000-08:00

VJC SENIOR DINNER AND DANCE
RITZ CARLTON HOTEL
6th DECEMBER 2006

its so surreal that the event that we've been planning for half a year long was finally executed.
and it was GREAT. i dont care! its GREAT GREAT GREAT.
the kids was great the pageant was lovely the bands rocked.

if only my ONE WEEK OLD camera wasnt stolen backstage,
along with sheena's phone and shuhuas handbag,
it all be oh-so-dreamlike-lovely
no pics as a result =(((

im still bleeding from the lost,
getting it back is like a birthday wish chanted over and over again.
but to whoever took it i just wanna say,
I FORGIVE YOU.

sicko

2006-11-28T22:24:00.000-08:00

sick for the 2983472908347982734th this yr.
what is wrong with me?
i dont have a good feeling bout the upcoming china trip either.
when travelled to china, i fell sick. ditto to taiwan japan trips.

i feel baddd. when everybodys having jobs to earn their own allowances, instead im splurging on my folk's :(((

ROARR

Andrew's Saints

2006-11-26T05:41:00.000-08:00

YO. been in SYFC camp for the past few days. its a pretty neat camp.
games were fresh and challenging. the lodging's great @ St' Andrews Boarding. the food is greater and MILO there is THE GREATEST. hohoho.
we called ourselves Andrew's Saints by the way.
tho it sounds a little treacherous if you know what i mean.

we had night orienteering @ Sentosa. twas like amazing race in the dark but with more precision and wayyyy more patience. we also built one of those walls for rockclimbing. from scratch k. with all those bolts and nuts and allenkey and spanner.. those were the new vocab i learnt. then we got to climbed what we built. the whole thing is pretty cool lah.

of course there are much more than games la. lotsa lessons learnt bout Christian Leadership and plans for VJ etcetc. thank God.
im pretty excited myself so to speak.

aftcamp:
disastrous. not the vivo lunch part. but whats after that.
supposed to collect the sponsored sweets from Jurong (walao). then put them in VJ.
with my camp luggages, i had to endure the excruciatingly nauseating taxi rides. uncles' rides were jerky and made me real sick.
i slept for 14hours aft that. hah.

oh and i secretly promised to be a better driver than them :)

1Tim 6:12

2006-11-19T23:32:00.000-08:00

God is so great.
Just when my faith was shaken confused by Post-Modern theories and ideas; how ppl react to them. He made me read this in Discipleship class.

"Fight the good fight of faith. Take hold of the eternal life to which you were called when you made your good confession in the presence of many witnesses."

1 Timothy 6:12

tho' i cant say that i wont be shaken again for ever and ever more, in fact i will (must?) still question compare and reason , this kind of reassured me to hold on to the grace that was given to me, un-deservingly.

Dragon boating!

2006-11-18T00:04:00.000-08:00

DRAGON BOATING and BBQ ytd!
woooot! twas truckloads of fun.
we paddled from kallang river all the way to boatquay.
it felt pretty near tho'
(but now im suffering the aftermath back muscle aches)
went under the merlion's puke repeatedly and got completely drenched.
also played viking ship where the boat was rocked extreme from side to side whilst we sat on the edge. and somehow David Poh was thrown overboard. hmmm.

(by the way i forgot to mention that Marc spotted a used condom floating past our boat shudders hahaha.)

and did i mention i was having my per**d?
YEAH BABEH. haha. ownage la. but thankgod it dint leak.
BBQ @ ecp was surprisingly filling. i mean usually food is a scarcity in BBQs.
music was entertaining, weathers fine, foods yummay and most imptly the company was great!
THANKS!

should i go?

2006-11-16T07:15:00.000-08:00

dilemmmaaaa.
theres this partially-sponsored 7 days camp to china which involves touring museums, china-versioned movie world (!), a truly white xmas (!!!) and skiing (!!!!!!!!!!!!!)
but problem is its till the 28thDec and i just rmbed that i took on the O1 manpower job to plan the OGL camp which will be on 27th and 28th.
DRATS. what should i doOOooo?

tampons

2006-11-15T05:22:00.000-08:00

found in some girlie mag me n vira were reading in the libr.
read the captions -_-"
think i'll stick to some good ol' pads