Wednesday, March 04, 2009Y 12:26 AM
Things have been uneventful lately. Like an idle mind, a playground for the devil, I have been having wilder thoughts recently. Getting a nose piercing for instance. Getting into a relationship just to have someone to accompany me to go places to do stuffs. Maybe I am just bored. I have itching to shop lately or to just watch a nice movie. I haven't been to a movie theater ever since I came to Berkeley.
I am 20. I wonder what that means. I'll be earning my own living in no time. No time for playing no time to be fooling around then. I HAVE to get married soon then. It makes me want to live a little more recklessly right now and just to be footloose and fancy-free. I wanna go to MASS pillow-fights and concert mosh pits and roadtrips and lindyhop and get a pet. Yet again I dont wanna be caught in the race against time to find a decent soulmate and to maintain my grades and fulfil my social responsibilities.
My urges to do crazier stuffs are always dampened by my reasons, my obligations as the dutiful daughter, as a proper I-want-to-graduate-with-a-decent-GPA-student, as a worthy friend, as an advocate and steward of Lord Jesus Christ. I can never freely act whatever 'cos I am always bogged down (and woken up) by repercussions and ramifications of my actions. Not that its bad; it keeps me falling off the edge.
