Tuesday, September 08, 2009Y 1:05 AM
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I am so glad for the reflective life I am brought into. It hurts me how I can be so obnoxious. Next time, I promise to catch myself before raising my voice or saying hurtful things that I will regret. What siji said was right. I want to appear studious yet chill yet fun loving and friendly. There is too much focus on me and myself and how others view me. And I realize this self absorption blinds me, make me a bitter person. From now, I will intentionally shine the limelight on someone else, I will intentionally not expect rewards nor praise nor recognition, I will intentionally explain my difficulties and not throw a tantrum.
Humility by Andrew Murray may that be a reminder for me, always.
Saturday, July 18, 2009Y 11:29 PM
So many places to go but no one to go with :(
...and photoshop is a bitch. I hate unproductive holidays like this. It makes me angry bitter and unloving. It hit me today, if I cant be less selfish and learn love my family, I may never be ready to meet anyone to love and be loved.
Monday, June 08, 2009Y 1:14 AM
Help me I am about to finish How I Met Your Mother just in the week that I am in Houston. I have never expected it would be so hard spending time with dad. Sometimes I feel that being just with my dad brings out my worse traits like sleeping late and waking up late and lazying around the house all day or maybe its just summer in houston - with nada friends around. Even when I attempted to make it interesting - visiting Rice University, visiting Galleria, it doesn't work. why why why.
Sunday, May 17, 2009Y 1:19 AM
I am almost done with freshman year. One more Kabbalistic paper away and then, summer all over again. I really hope this summer will not be a waste again like last one. I really
hated my time in Walnut last year, I can just cry thinking about the precious youth time I lost, so many things I can learn, so many new hobbies I can take on, so many people I can meet. It was the single most unproductive moment in my life and I wished I could just MyLife(Spring/Summer'08)=[].
When I learned in church that living life to the fullest, just cos one doesnt want regret anything aftwards, shouldnt be the goal in a christian's life, I was kind of confused. "People chasing around goals after goals to never fill that void in their heart." repeated in conjunction with the earlier. Maybe its true, I will always have "what ifs", and I may never fill that void in my heart. But
the point is, I want to spend my summer doing something radical, something memorable, something I enjoy.
Berkeley has been fun I would say. The people has been great. I kinda wished Berkeley is still in its full glory of a 90's hippy town, more eccentrics more ridiculous-ness more shocking and less nerdy Asians like me. Hopefully I will come to own a car soon so to discover more exciting places around (((:
Saturday, May 09, 2009Y 1:40 AM
If that was God's way of saying "wait", then I'll be patient.
Tuesday, April 28, 2009Y 8:39 AM
The love for equals is a human thing—of friend for friend, brother for brother. It is to love what is loving and lovely. The world smiles.
The love for the less fortunate is a beautiful thing—the love for those who suffer, for those who are poor, the sick, the failures, the unlovely. This is compassion, and it touches the heart of the world.
The love for the more fortunate is a rare thing—to love those who succeed where we fail, to rejoice without envy with those who rejoice, the love of the poor for the rich, of the black man for the white man. The world is always bewildered by its saints.
And then there is the love for the enemy—love for the one who does not love you but mocks, threatens, and inflicts pain. The tortured’s love for the torturer. This is God’s love. It conquers the world.
Frederic Buechner - The Magnificent Defeat
Tuesday, March 10, 2009Y 12:52 PM
The Fame - Lady GagaFame, doin' it for the fame'cause we wanna live the lifeOf the rich and famousFame, doin' it for the fame'cause we gotta taste for champagneAnd endless fortune
